The Repeating Record

How many posts have I written about  the dreaded two words: Weight Loss?! I believe about a bagillion, or so it seems. And it's the same thing over and over again.
I just want to snap my fingers and be the size and weight I want. Is that too much to ask?!
The answer is obviously yes, cause if that were true we wouldn't have  the highest obesity count in the world.
And I fit in that count. And I finally came to admit it. Hey, the first step is admitting it, right?!
The other day, I was sitting at home and I just felt DISGUSTING!!!! Absolutely horrible about myself and how I've let myself go.
Before I met Sir Dan, I was a whomping 128 pounds.  I had lost 30 pounds and looked freakin sexy as hell.

this is proof

When I met Sir Dan, I maintained the weight for all of 3 months. I, like most women,  got super comfortable wihtin our relationship and put all, plus more, of the weight back on.
I lost weight for the wedding, not as much as I wanted but I was comfortable.

going to my bridal shower

And like most newlyweds, all the weight came back... and then some!
I feel like I've been dating my whole adult life. Whether it's counting points, calories, working out, whatever!!!  It just hasn't ever stopped or gotten easier.
I am currently at my heaviest  and extremely disgusted with myself. And I have nobody to blame but myself.
And that other day when I felt like crawling in a hole, I decided that I have to change. My habits, eating and otherwise, have to change.
I'm starting with eating super healthy. A cheat here and there is fine, but only here and there. I'm not counting anything... habits need to change and I have to get use to clean eating.
I would love to work out and go to the gym, but unfortunately financing isn't there right now. I loved going to the gym, that's how I got down to a comfortable weight for the wedding. Hopefully soon I'll be hittin the weights.
This is what my breakfast and lunches look like:

Oats, peanut butter, chocolate chips, and honey.
I eat 2 of these every morning paired with a piece of fruit.
They are so freakin good!!!
And they keep you full for so long.

SALAD!!!
Every good clean eater eats a crazy amount of salad.
And there's protein in there for good health :)

There you have it. My commitment to myself for all to see. I think I can. I think I can. So far so good, goin strong! Onto the weekend to bring on new challenges.
How is everybody doing with their weight loss challenges?!?